When I found out I was pregnant (even though I was hoping the test would say "yes") I couldn't believe it. I didn't "feel" pregnant. We had just decided to try for another baby and bam - pregnant. (Inside my head I was thinking. . . This couldn't be. I heard it takes a long time for the second baby. This can't be right.) I needed time to mentally prepare or something. So I did what any rational person would do . . . I took another test. Positive.
Still not convinced.
Yep, still positive. I wanted to go buy another test but John stopped me.
When I went to the doctor's for the first time, I couldn't believe it when they didn't test me for pregnancy. The nurse said, "Honey, with three positive home pregnancy tests, I'd say you're pretty darn pregnant."
So, needless to say, I have a few used pregnancy tests laying around the house. I keep them, rechecking to make sure they still say positive. Weird, I know, but that's me. I guess it just feels "too good to be true."
Being pregnant makes my heart feel so sappy. I feel so blessed, so amazingly lucky to have the privilege of becoming a mother AGAIN, so stunned that God trusts me enough to give me yet another child to raise. I honestly feel like a walking miracle. (When John gets lippy with me, I tell him, "Have some respect. I'm a walking miracle.") Seriously, having a whole person develop inside of you IS a miracle. I told you pregnancy makes me sappy.
So the other day I heard Megan saying, "Wow, new lipstick! How does it look Mommy?" Weird, since she was nowhere near where I keep my lipstick. (Side note: I have one child. Why do I find it so hard to keep track of her in this house?)
Then I found her . . . holding one of my (used) pregnancy tests, cap off, and rubbing the side with the pee stick all over her lips. Oh, how gross!!!!!!! Poor little girl had no idea that was MOST CERTAINLY NOT LIPSTICK!
Are you sure I'm ready for two????? Really, who am I to question your judgement but seriously . . . have you thought this one all the way through???